DADDY

All those years, Daddy
You in my bed
You thought I’d forgotten forevermore
My prison, our great secret

Stolen innocence, Daddy
Guilty at such a tender age
Nearly suffocating, forced not to scream
I am falling .... quietly, through dull, distorted sounds.

BUT YOU DIDN’T MANAGE TO SILENCE ME I FIND THE WORDS TO DEFINE
THE TABOO DO YOU HEAR
I EXCRETE YOUR SPERM, CLEANSE MYSELF, SPIT IT OUT
WHAT’S LEFT WILL FLOURISH, CAN DEVELOP
SLOWLY HEAL OHHH
AND NONETHELESS I AM LEARNING WHAT REAL LOVE IS

All those hours, Daddy
Sold down the river
Unified you all baptized me the wicked girl
And used the offense to shoot reality

Lost childhood, Daddy
Hurt limitlessly
So many excruciating feelings and so much pain, still
Omnipresent powerlessness

Solo and chorus

All those minutes, Daddy
In which I can recognize
Love, Desire, Trust can be, gifts, sometimes
Healthy core, saved, held protected from you

You knew, Mommy
And never did a thing
I am starting a better life without parents
Nonetheless, as a favour to myself

Music and lyrics by Astrid Kottmann
(Translation: Nicole Widmer)